My Badge of Honor

At the doctor

At the doctor

Next day

Next day

Breaking through into the Light

Breaking through into the Light

I am compelled to share this particular journey with you in case it will be inspirational to you.  We are all in this amazing, bizarre, wonderful, terrible, joyous, confusing, enlightening journey in third dimension together!  This profound experience for me I feel many are experiencing maybe in different ways, but feels universal in its meaning.  I discovered such a deep truth about my inner journey through this experience … it has changed my life in a huge way already!

Three days ago I had surgery on my face for basel skin cancer.  I have had many small surgeries like this …. but none right on my FACE!  The doctor removed the cancer in two “cuts” and it turned out to be much larger than I thought it would be.  Doug, my loving husband, took a photo of the wound before the nurse dressed it.  Oh my … it was just shocking and very devastating for me to see this gaping hole that was about half inch by quarter inch staring out at me!  That day I was just devastated, fell into a slump of no energy and just wanted to cry.

The next day the plastic surgeon closed the wound and to me it was even worse than the day before!  I had a huge slash next to my mouth that was not small at all, as I had hoped (see photos).

Why did this affect me so very much?  Was it my vanity?  Was my vanity so enormous as to cause me to fall into depression?  Was this a punishment from my Higher Self because I love to dress up, adorn my body with beautiful things, and was just too focused on the material?  All these thoughts rolled around in my head. The next day I discovered it was not at all what these thoughts were pointing to … it was actually a shocking revelation. [Read more…]