Darkness into Light: Shock into Awe

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I will never forgot that fateful day a month ago, June 8, 2019, when we were shocked beyond belief and I was forced to face my greatest and hardest challenge of my life and the deepest fears that uncovered my hidden, scared little child within … I will tell you the story below AND how this experience catalyzed the most powerful and profound inner child healing I have ever received.

We are now creating a new life book: Book Two, Chapter one, Page one. In “Book One” twenty five years ago my husband, Doug, and I “jumped off the cliff” and dove into a completely new life as we sold everything and moved to Hawaii to work with the wild dolphins and whales.

It was a true spiritual calling catalyzed by a “lightening bolt of White Light” that went through me with the loud and express words …”Go do this work!” Many of you know this story so I won’t go into it all now …. just to know that we followed our guidance to completely change our lives and follow Spirit. Yes, it took so much courage and thrust us into completely surrendering to our souls and trusting the universe that we would be taken care of having left our professions to begin a whole new life in Hawaii.

The dolphins and whales helped so much to quell my fears from childhood from living in a loving but dysfunctional family … fears that I would not be taken care of due to my father’s alcoholism and my mother’s emotional challenges and a family of seven children and the challenge of financial security for this big family.

I had been through so many years of therapy and spiritual healing to heal that little three year old child within, and our work with the dolphins and whales put me into a space of no fear for many years, especially the last five years or so. I thought I was completely healed! And this recent experience tapped into the depths of my little girl’s emotional body hidden within my second chakra. I will tell you what happened.

Our dolphin and whale business afforded us a very nice lifestyle for many years until 2008, when the big financial crash happened in the US and throughout the world. When that happened, our retreat business was challenged because many could not afford to come to Hawaii. Since our income declined, Doug, my husband, started to work part time as a mortgage loan officer to bring in more income.

During that time, he learned about the abject fraud and corruption that the “Banksters” perpetrated on the American people through their fraudulent mortgages, and Doug was guided to just stop giving them any more of our money. We had owned our home in Hawaii since we moved there in 1994. This awareness and Doug’s commitment to always follow guidance and to expose the fraud, after nearly ten years and seven years in court unfortunately finally led to the Banksters winning and our losing our home.

Doug was like a whisteblower, continuously keeping the fraud and corruption “in their faces.” Learning how to navigate the legal system required a very steep learning curve. The Universe always provided just the right information at the perfect time, ultimately leading the Sheriff to refer the matter to the Hawaii Attorney General for her opinion.

Unfortunately, Doug sadly learned that there is no way for any homeowner to win in court … even the courts are complicit in the fraud … and, of course it all started with the government bringing in the Federal Reserve and the fiat currency monetary system.

Doug is a Spiritual Warrior and in service to the Truth. He is also connected to Archangel Michael and his Sword of Truth. In a channeling he was told that his task was to bring the Light into this web of corruption … and that he did. He seeded the hologram with the Light and we do believe that one day the Light will prevail …. just not in time to save our home!.

We were told in February, by the Sheriff in Oahu (the main Hawaiian island), that he submitted all Doug’s paperwork to the state Attorney General. We were happy about that because perhaps she would see the Light and release our home to us …. or at the very least the Sheriff said he would let us know what her decision was and we would definitely get notice of a date we would have to leave if she ruled against us in the end. He gave us the idea that he would give us a week or two notice.

THE SHOCK
Well, what happened was the shock of our lives! We traveled to Portland for the summer where some of our children and grandchildren are on June 5 … and three days later we were hit with the news. Our friend, Lanny, was staying in our home while we were away.

At 9am on Saturday morning, the sheriff deputy for Big Island drove up to our home with five other officers and Lanny was told he had 15 minutes to move out!!! He called us and told us this and we were in total absolute shock!! The sheriff completely betrayed us and we did not have any notice at all …. AND at that moment we thought we would not be able to return ever to retrieve our precious belongings!!

Luckily a friend was visiting Lanny at the time so they scrambled to get most of his belongings out and were able to get our two small boxes of our important papers. I had one more small box of my precious jewelry and silver tableware I wanted him to get …. but alas, the officers would not let him as time was up!!

Oh my, I was put into such a deep shock, it felt like a bomb went off in my body! For the first three hours after that call, since we believed that this was it and we could not go back at all, I fell into a very dark place. It was not just the sudden and surprise shock of having to move out in 15 minutes, but the deep betrayal triggered my little girl in a way I had never felt before. I was devastated!

While in Portland we were prepared to fly back to Hawaii to move out if we had to expecting that we would have a week or two to have a garage sale and get all our precious things out if we finally lost. This, though, was betrayal and for three hours I was deep into sorrow and pain.

Finally at 3pm our time in Portland (three hours after that dreaded phone call), Doug heard from the realtor involved that we could go back into the house for four hours only within the next few weeks to retrieve our things. That was such a relief, but the trauma was done and my little girl was still devastated and I was “dead” inside for three days hence.

I got very sick with a bad cold and felt just miserable for those days. On the third day, I was staying in bed all day, and I had the most miraculous healing during meditation that completely turned me around and brought me back to my center, thank God.

THE HEALING
I want to tell you about this amazing healing but first preface it with the fact that I was born on Easter. That celebration of Light has affected my life profoundly over the years. I see my life, with its challenges and emotional healing, as reflective of the Easter story as I have had many “deaths and resurrections” over the many years of inner healing.

What happened on that third day after the big shock was truly a miracle. I was in meditation lying on the bed that morning just surrendering to the flow. Suddenly I saw myself encapsulated in an opaque white seamless “capsule” … that is what it looked like. You would think it would be scary to find oneself inside something like this … but for me, it felt so safe and comfortable.

I could see with my mind’s eye that all of my spiritual guides were surrounding this capsule and they brought me up into higher frequencies and then began to tone the frequency of pure love into me and the capsule. Oh, the divine feeling within me was exquisite and so comforting! I felt this love for about ten minutes! Beautiful!

After this, they raised the capsule into even higher frequencies and realms and suddenly the capsule opened and I found myself lying on a table. At my head, looking down on me, was a Pleiadian master (I am connected with the Pleiades); at my feet, standing over me, was Metatron, the Angel of the Angels; on my left side was standing Mother Mary, one of my closest guides; and on my right stood Quan Yin, the Goddess of Compassion. They were holding space.

Suddenly, Jesus appeared. I was raised Catholic and Jesus and Mary have been my main guides all of my life. Though I moved way beyond the religion, I do have a deep connection with these two guides.

Jesus placed his two hands, one atop the other, over my third eye. I believe now he did that so that I could understand all that was happening to me. Then he placed his right hand on my heart. Oh my …. I could feel my heart blasting open and the heart of my little girl within too! It was magnificent!

I knew that I had healed my inner child to a great degree over the many years of inner work I had done and thought I was finished with that part of my healing, but at this time, I could “see” her inside my abdomen area lying in the fetal position still afraid she would not be taken care of. She was still there deep inside unbeknownst to my conscious mind.

What Jesus did next was phenomenal. He placed his right hand over my abdomen and his left hand on my back on the other side. Then he proceeded to send the most blessed energy of healing into my little girl. After some time I could see her unfolding from the fetal position, standing up and then opening her arms! He healed her then and there!

As I said, I have had many energy healings over the years, but this one was by far the most profound. I knew in all the cells of my body that my little girl was finally healed of her fear.

In looking back over those three days I liken it to the symbolic Easter story in relation to my little life. Saturday, June 8 we got that devastating call at noon our time. For those first three hours we thought we had lost everything … symbolic to me of Jesus on the cross, the crucifiction, the death. For the next three days, even though we finally found we could go back to our home to retrieve things, I felt dead inside and was experiencing PTSD … and the third day I was healed and came alive again, just like the resurrection! I felt completely back to my center and knew I was recovered emotionally and spiritually. I felt great and knew I could handle anything in the future!

It did take my poor body some more weeks to heal. Isn’t that what they say … the body holds it all in the densest form until we release the old programming and dysfunctional subconscious content at the cellular level that hinders our mastery.

A few weeks later, Doug flew back to Kona to remove our belongings. The first miracle about all this was that so many of our beloved dolphin community members came forth on that day to help Doug with all that needed to be done in only four hours! Wow … we didn’t even ask and they came forward … and others offered their spaces for our tubs and a place to stay for Doug … it was miraculous and for that we are so grateful to each and every one of them (we honor them by sharing their names below)! Thank you, thank you, thank you!

The second miracle about that day was that our dear friends and mentors, Joan Ocean and Jean-Luc Bozolli, were conducting a meditation for the community around the sacred fire on their ranch that night. How perfect! I asked Joan if she wouldn’t mind having our beloved community members do an Ohm in gratitude to our home that held such beautiful energy of retreats, meditations, Christmas party and all the love it held for twenty five years. As community members were sitting around the fire, I was on Facetime with Doug so that I could wave to everyone and receive their love and support. It was so beautiful and felt just right.

After the Ohm and the community sending rainbow light into our home, Joan asked me to stay on the phone. She had a song for us and for all. OMG …. the song she played was Barbra Striesand singing that gorgeous song, “There’s a Place for Us” …. can you imagine the tears!! It was just the perfect closing to that chapter and book of our lives. Thank you so much Joan.

We are so very grateful for our beautiful home/sanctuary that held such amazing energy from 25 years of retreats filled with loving souls from all over the world … Christmas parties each year for over 100 community members and global visitors (we will find a way to continue for sure) … community meditations … and fun parties and so much more!  Mahalo!

So now we are without our physical home but we are deeply at home in our hearts. We have been practicing what we teach and believe in our beings … we create our own reality by our thoughts and beliefs. After the trauma I was looking back over those three days and asked my Higher Self this question: “If we are masters and are creating our reality, why did I create such a horrid experience?”

My inner wisdom shared that this was the only way I could unearth that little girl who was still in fear in the deepest part of my psyche, my subconscious! I needed a shock to my system to bring her forth. It felt so true! I had done so much inner work to heal her, but she was hidden so deep I was unaware she was still in fear. What a beautiful realization for me! Now I know she is healed and though we are without a physical home at this point, I truly know that all is well and we are being taken care of.

Doug and I expect miracles and magic and that is how we navigate this third dimensional reality. We consciously practice holding the Light and Love and vision for our choices for our unfolding journey every hour on the hour. We have surrendered to our souls and Higher Selves and follow our inner guidance in all decisions even when we are now suspended in the unknown about our living situation. Thank you to the dolphins and the whales, to our mentors and teachers and to the universe for showing us the way.

The magic is already beginning! We have been staying with our kids and house sitting for them while they are in Europe so far and rather than having to rent a place in Portland for August and into September, we have been invited to stay in our friend’s beautiful home on a lake in Canada for a week (thank you Jonathan Kay!)… been invited to stay at our friends and clients’ home in Calgary for some more days (thank you Cal Merritt and Deanna Myson) and will be staying with friends and family until we return to Hawaii to prepare for our Whales of Mo’orea Retreat starting end of September! Yayyy!  Thank you to Diane Harmony for inviting us to stay for some days when we return to Kona.  We are so blessed.

We see the magic coming forth on so many levels! My Higher Self has given me a vision to hold on to for the last year and half going through the house drama. I see Doug and me atop a huge opalescent white wave. We are riding the wave above the chaos and see this wave gently ushering us onto the shore filled with pearls and jewels. We easily step off the wave and onto the sparkling beach as we take steps into our new life … grace and ease.
We are holding this vision and can’t wait to see the magic that unfolds in this life journey! We will keep you informed!

THANK YOU
We wish to acknowledge and thank all the Dolphin Community Angels that came forth to help us and offer to help us with storage space, physical help moving, place to stay and overall support … thank you, thank you, thank you:
SPECIAL THANKS TO THE HEAVY LIFTERS:
Lanny Sinkin
Sheila Beahm
Roger Morin
Sheoli Makara
Nigel Patterson
Mitch Harris
Duane Voss
Maria Owl Gutierrez
Merlyn Mahalo
Pomaikai Coulon
Amber Aoki
Austin Aoki
Elisha Southworth
AND TO ALL OTHERS:
Diane Harmony
Celeste Eaton
Jonathan Kay
Deanna Myson
Calvin Merritt
Juhl Rayne
Dave and Sharon Messinger
Paul MacIsaac
Liza Brown
Dave and Kathy Jensen
Kathy Carr
Joan Ocean
Jean-Luc Bozolli
Sandia Siegel
Miles Mulcahy
Debby & Jerry Halpern
Dharmani Zellin
Barrie Rose
Dianna DeRosa
Alice Tobin
David Trujillo
Bob Flatt
Lisa Sims
Ginger Vogler

Thank you, thank you, thank you …. we are so blessed.