At the volcano
Moving to Portland!
We are moving to Portland! After 32 years living and working on the Big Island of Hawaii, my husband, Doug, and I have been guided to move “back home” to our kids and grandkids the end of June!
This decision/guidance is so very clear and it is very exciting, and also we feel very sentimental to be leaving the beautiful, sacred, magical islands that have graced us with so much transformation over the years.
In this post I wish to share with you what I have learned about physical healing and how I have eliminated most pain in my Crone’s body the last six years.
JUMPING OFF THE CLIFF:
Doug and I knew from the very beginning, back in 1993, when we got the “call” that it was meant to be that we were to work with the dolphins and whales and bring people from around the world to experience the magic. In our hearts we were all aboard … and … in my body I was terrified to be “jumping off the cliff” into the unknown! We had no idea how we would actually make a living, just that we had to go.
As it turned out, we had the most amazing, magical, transformational, fun and exciting life that filled 27 years of facilitating dolphin and whale spiritual retreats. We retired in 2020 and were drawn and guided to then live a very quiet life in the sacred Ohia rain forest near one of the most active volcanoes in the world … Kilauea.
Goddess Pele
HEALING WITH PELE:
Pele is the goddess of the volcano and has worked with me on a very deep level for the last six years. Each morning, when the sun was shining, I sat in our warm (not hot) hot tub in the back yard surrounded by the Ohia trees and giant ferns for an hour or so at a time. I was completely surrounded by nature! So glorious!
I would commune with the light sparkles as the sun would land on the morning dew and they would speak to me. I learned so much and I had the blessed opportunity, with Pele’s urging, to go really deep into my emotional body to unearth core issues that I had worked on for years and years. I felt that Pele was supporting me in allowing my inner child to come forth from the depths of my physical body where I was holding deep remnants of pain from my childhood. “Does it every end?”, I would ask.
I have realized that one of the main tenets of my spiritual path has been to balance my inner masculine and feminine.
As a child, my little girl was in fear often because my father, an alcoholic at the time, had trouble keeping a job. I knew, with five children at that time, he could not really support us. Because I was intuitive and tuned in, I could not only feel my father’s pain but also my mother’s fear and shame. I took it all in to my body and my cells.
My spiritual “work” for all my life has been to heal that child through many years of therapy, spiritual healings and body work. Swimming with dolphins and whales helped greatly, of course.
Now in my 82nd year on earth, I have found that I still had some places in my body that were holding the fear and shame! It always shows up as physical pain. Now I know how to heal myself, along with the energy of Pele, Goddess of Fire. We have been “in the fire”, so to speak, for six years and oh how powerful this has been.
HEALING PAIN:
I want to share one of the ways I heal my body by awareness. This is an example of what I have learned.
We were guided to “jump off the cliff” again and move to Portland the end of June. I had thought I was fully capable of facing this huge life change with grace and ease … but my body had other plans and showed me where I needed to pay attention and let go.
In April, I broke my left wrist by falling onto the stone hearth in our living room. When I went into that area of my body, what I intuited from my cells was that my feminine side could not receive. I could not allow myself to receive more than I was giving! It was a Catholic thing really. We were taught to give, give, give. How could I receive with a broken wrist?? I could not hold all the grace shining on me with my wrist in pain!
Once I knew that was the spiritual cause of my wrist pain, I could allow myself to grieve my little girl’s pain and fear and let it go. It was such a powerful process.
Once I dealt with my little girl, my inner little boy acted up! I slipped and pulled my right groin muscle and pain began to radiate down my leg for weeks. I was gifted a fabulous massage, which loosened that area very much. It began to feel better, but still painful to walk. I knew I had to go in deep to find out what was really going on with my inner masculine (right side of body).
What I discovered when facing my inner masculine was my little boy shouting … “I need to control this move but I just want to play … but I am in charge of making everyone in my family happy … I cannot control it (or anything!) and so I am a failure!” Wow! I did not expect that!
I allowed my little boy to grieve his childhood and in that release of emotions, I gradually healed my leg.
Mother’s Day at Volcano House
PELE’S GIFT:
Last week Kilauea volcano erupted once again with fountaining of hot lava up to 1000 feet high! When we went up to view this spectacular occurrence and were mesmerized by the awesome show, I asked Pele for a sign that we were indeed doing the right thing by moving.
Magically, the fountain began to create the shape of a pyramid or a triangle, over and over again. That represented to me the Golden Triangle that appeared to me years and years ago when asked in a retreat to “see” my soul. My soul showed up as a giant golden triangle.
I could clearly see that Pele was telling me that I was doing the right thing by working with both my inner feminine child and my inner masculine child (represented by the bottom of the triangle … feminine on one side and masculine on the other.) When both in alignment and balanced we then move upward to join together as one at the top of the triangle. Pele was showing me that, yes, we are doing the right thing and are on the right track.
When I zoomed in on one of the pictures I took of the fountain of lava, I saw something so magical! I could see Pele in the fire leaning down and comforting my inner girl and inner boy. See if you can see it too. Yayyy! She certainly did respond!
Pele with my inner children
This is just one example of how Pele has taught me to heal the physical. I am now out of pain for the most part and ready for the big leap, moving 32 years of living on island to Portland and family.
ANOTHER HEALING:
In March I had a mysterious UTI that seemed to stay in my body for three weeks. I had no energy at all, but just kept on working as a caregiver, pushing myself to do my job.
One day, three weeks in, I asked the Hawaiian grandmothers to help me heal. Suddenly, while in meditation, I saw our dear friend who is on the “other side”, Aka, show up in front of me! Behind her was her grandmother, who was a Lapa’au healer (one of a long line of female healers in her lineage).
Aka
Many years ago, Aka told us of the time she broke her leg with a compound fracture. Magically, her grandmother healed her and three days later Aka was running and playing with her friends!
I was so happy to see her grandmother, who began to send white light energy into my abdomen! I could feel the light expanding farther and farther into the area. As I focused on the light, where the light shone, I did not feel any pain at all! I was healed for a day and half, until a bit of the pain came back for me to go deeper.
What I learned from this experience is that my focus determines my health. As much as I can focus on my spiritual unfolding path and living from the center point, I can be healed physically. Thank you Aka’s grandmother.
THE MOVE:
It feels to Doug and me that we are starting a new book of our life together … not a chapter, but a whole new book.
We were one with water for 27 years working with the ocean beings … then we lived with the fire for 6 years … and now we are going to the land/earth. Feels perfect, though we will miss our dear friends here on island so much!
Though, in my soul, I know that our move and all the moving parts are coming together perfectly, I still need to keep my heart open to allowing the unfolding, however it all shows up, and stay out of fear. I am eternally grateful to our spirits for guiding us here to Hawaii and know that we will create a whole new magical life on the mainland.
Thank you Big Island … we love you!
