

In the rainforest
July 6, 2021 REBORN!!
I Am
It Is
Amen
If you have been following my journey of inner healing and surrender for the last two years since we lost our house, you will know of the stunning initiation that occurred to me when we were with the humpback whales in Mo’orea last October.
Since my last writing, my dear body has been showing me where very old energy was hidden within … remnants of past traumas from my childhood and past lives that have been stuck in the density of my cells for seventy seven years. Yes, I have gone through many years of therapy and energy healings before being called to Hawaii to work with the dolphins way back in 1994. And this sacred time has allowed my soul to bring forth the deep core entrenched energies to be loved and transmuted into Light.
Though I had so much fear of financial security,and other fears too, hidden within, I actually allowed myself to “jump off the cliff” following our guidance to move to Hawaii in 1994. Over the many years, the dolphins and whales helped me to release that fear so deeply. I do feel I am now free of it for the most part, thanks to the cetaceans and to my amazing husband, Doug, who supports me on all levels.
Back in October, while we were facilitating our whale-swim retreat in beautiful Mo’orea, the last Thursday swim (October 8) brought forth the extraordinary initiation that I have written about in my blog (scroll down). At that time, the whales told me (and it was confirmed by my spiritual teacher, David) that I was going to give birth to a new me … I was the Mother and the Child. I was symbolically carrying the new me. I knew the gestation would take nine months.
During the last nine months, I have had delicious time to just be … no work during this time. I gave myself the gift of only focusing on myself for this gestation period. For days on end, I would sit in our yard here in the beautiful rain forest and just allow myself to sit and be with nature. There was nothing I HAD to do! Pele held my feet to the fire supporting my clearings. Surrounded by the sacred Ohia trees and giant ferns in the peaceful surroundings here has allowed my process of deeper healing to unfold and my body to finally let go of ancient negative energy from this life and other lifetimes too.
I have so loved this quiet time, even though I had pains in my body and emotional clearings off and on all along the way. My body showed me through the pain that, despite years and years of healing, I had not completely unearthed and been conscious of remnants of past trauma from my childhood that were still stuck.
We had to go through all of our things that have been in paid storage since July of 2019 and clear out even more. This allowed me to find treasures of awakening that I had written about in my journals, and memories began to flourish.
As the months rolled on, different memories from the dysfunction came into my awareness to be felt, cried out and loved, which led to many times of forgiveness and clearing. I was aware enough to allow the feelings and not to do spiritual bypassing. My amazing husband, Doug, would stop what he was doing and just hold me as I cried and shook until the psychic pain passed once again.
July 1, as I was nearing the ninth month date of my spiritual gestation time, I was guided to do a seven day silent retreat. This was perfect for me as I could really look over the last nine months and understand it all. I did a few meditations each day, read excerpts from books that were guided by my Higher Self, wrote in my journal and allowed myself to just be with the silence.
On July 6, I had the very strong feeling that this was to be my new birth-day. As I made my way to my favorite spot in our backyard up on the little hill to find the perfect spot to sit, I heard, “This is like your third dimensional birth (I was born on Easter) … like Easter and being re-born into the Light.”
Earlier that day I had finished my journaling and delving into various etheric ceremonies guided by my Higher Self (HS). I did feel complete and ready for birth. The following is what happened for my new birth. Continue reading

