Stunning Whale Initiation: Mo’orea 2020

Aloha Dear Friends,

As we enter into the new year, we can feel the energy of awakening as humanity moves into higher and higher frequencies.  Though it may not be evident in the world outside of ourselves if we keep our focus in our hearts and keep connecting with our souls, I believe we can weather all the challenges of this time with inner peace and love as we continue to co-create the world of compassion, love, and abundance for all.

I wish to share with you the amazing and profound initiation experience I had with two humpback whales during our Whales of Mo’orea Retreat (Week Two) on October 8, 2020.  It has taken me these last months to integrate these experiences that have been so deep for me.

We were told by the whales telepathically way back in March of last year, 2020, when the lock-down began, that even though we had many cancelations of our retreats with the whales that were planned for fall, that we would be with them in Mo’orea.  They saw it and we just had to keep trusting that it would happen.  After much confusion about Covid tests required, etc, we ended up with eight intrepid explorers who made it happen through it all!  We had three participants in Week One, the last week of September (including my daughter Katie … which was a highlight of my life!) and six participants in Week Two, the first week of October.  One participant, Lisa, joined both weeks.

Our time in beautiful Mo’orea was the best two weeks we have had with our beloved whales in all the sixteen years that we have taken groups to swim with them!  The weather was perfect and the whale encounters were plentiful and intimate … it was breathtaking!  We felt the huge reward and grace flowing upon us for trusting the whales’ message that we would indeed be with them.

On the second to last day of our precious time there, I experienced something that I had never experienced in all our years of working with the humpbacks … it was an initiation and activation that was profound, visceral and powerful.

On the last Thursday before the end of our time in Mo’orea, we had had two amazing and wonderful swims with a mom humpback, her calf and an escort.  For about fifteen or twenty minutes each time, we were able to float gently as the baby came by each of us to play and give us close encounters that were so beautiful.  It was simply awesome and we all had amazing experiences.

After the second drop, when we got back into the boat I was feeling really tired, so when the captain told us we could go in one more time, I just did not have the energy because I was holding hands with one participant who needed extra help.

The rest of the group, minus me and two others who were also too tired, got back into the water and swam over to the whales for the final time to be with them that day.  In Mo’orea, per the laws, the boat cannot get close to the whales so we always have to swim quite a ways to reach them.

After about five minutes or so, our beloved captain, Heifara, said to me, “Go ahead and go on in.  I will get you a bit closer.”  He told me that only I could go … he did not want me to take the others in with me.  I believe he intuitively knew I would have an amazing encounter by myself.

Since I didn’t have to pull anyone else along, I gladly slipped into the water and began my swim toward the group, which was a ways away.  Suddenly, after a few minutes away from the boat, the baby whale broke off from all the people and came directly over to me.  It stopped very, very close to me and looked directly into my eyes for about thirty seconds to a minute!  When this happens it is impossible to estimate the time as that was a completely timeless and eternal moment!  To have a whale gaze directly into one’s eyes for a moment in infinity is to be in utter bliss.  It could have been two minutes … I just don’t know.

What happened next was unexpected and astounding!  After the locked-in gaze, when the whale began to gently float away, suddenly I felt a sharp pain in my lower back along my three lower chakras!  I have never had lower back pain like that ever.  I thought to myself, “Could one get a cramp in the back like in the legs while swimming?”  I couldn’t believe it!

Feeling the pain, I could not swim, so I just pulled my legs up to my chest and floated there until the pain finally went away in a few minutes.  I could, then, easily swim toward the group where the baby had returned.  We had another fifteen or so minutes with the whales until the mother humpback began to slowly swim off, as she does when we have had our fill of their amazing presence.

What happened next was even more amazing to me.  When the group got back to the boat we could hear the very loud song of a singer that must have been under the boat as the song was very very loud.  The captain told us we could stay there floating in the vibrations before having to get back onto the boat to get back to our resort.

We had been with singers a few times before during both retreats, but this song was so very different!  The whale beneath us was singing with a distinctly lamenting feel to the sound.  It felt sad like he was crying or grieving.  It touched my heart so deeply I began to cry and weep uncontrollably!

The wail of the singer brought back memories of my mother’s last few weeks of life when I remember her wailing in this same way.  She was on lots of morphine and could not talk at all those last few weeks, but soulful sounds like the whale song kept erupting from her all day long.  I knew she was not in pain and asked Spirit what was happening.  I was told that she had chosen to move through all of her karma in those weeks before her transition … that was what the wailing was about.

The last words my dear mother said to me as I stayed bedside to just pray and meditate with her spirit those last few weeks were deeply profound for me.  Since she couldn’t talk, I did not expect the moment she suddenly opened her eyes, looked directly at me and said very clearly, “You are doing everything right.”  She then closed her eyes again and did not interact until she transitioned a few weeks later.

This was a complete surprise since, having been a devout Catholic her whole adult life, when I left the church those many years ago, she always wanted me to come back to the Catholic church.  She simply could not understand my spiritual journey.  So with these words, I knew that, since she was in a state between worlds and the veils were thin for her, she could see the truth and she finally got what my life’s journey was about.  This was such a healing between us.

So when I was immersed in the lamenting whale song, that memory came into my awareness and I asked the whales what they were really doing to me?  The first thing I heard was that they were thanking us (my husband, Doug, and me) for jumping off the cliff twenty six years ago, facing our fears, and coming to Hawaii to work with them.  They overwhelmed me with this gratitude and tears flowed. Then I heard that the first whale calf blasted me into the Light of All Possibility and, along with the singer, was helping me to clear lifetimes of blocks in my lower chakras.

The sharp pain in my lower back was an energetic cleansing of very old patterns that were keeping me from moving into a new birth and the singer was helping me to access the deepest emotional aspects of self-judgment.

When we finally got back onto the boat, I just could not stop the clearing, crying and wailing … it was out of my hands and I just had to surrender to what my soul was allowing for me!  Our amazing group held space for me and I had to let go of any self-judgment that I was a leader of the group and seemed to be falling apart!  What a lesson in humility!

A few days after we returned from our trip, we attended our meditation group via Zoom with David as our meditation leader.  This is a weekly group that we had been a part of for many years before we got the calling to work with the cetaceans.  We have gratefully returned to it last year since it is now on Zoom.

During the meditation that evening, I began to feel a very uncomfortable bloating feeling in my abdomen.  It got worse and worse and I felt as though I was ten months pregnant!  It just wouldn’t go away as I tried to bring love into the area … but it was relentless until the end of the meditation.  So when the meditation ended I asked David about it.  He tuned in and said that the whales had cleared my lower chakras, and especially my second chakra (the creative one) so that I could birth the “new me.”  I just wasn’t ready to give birth yet!

That felt so right.  During the second meditation, David kept saying, “Just allow and say yes.”  I did so and finally, the pain released and I was back to normal.

I am so very grateful to these beloved whales for this initiation into my new Self.  This whole year living in Volcano with Goddess Pele’s Fire of Purification has allowed me to go really deep and this experience was exceptionally helpful too.  I have been guided, and my husband, Doug, too, that our work with the cetaceans (in the water) has come to an end.  It feels so right and I just don’t know what is next.  I do believe that the whales have helped me to clear out the old (and to allow this process to take as long as it takes) and I know that if there is more creativity and wisdom for me to share, it will come deeply from my heart and soul.

The first video you see above is a clip of the very calf that came to me and gazed into my eyes (taken by Doug earlier), and the second video is the sound of the whale song that the singer was singing as we got back to the boat.

The whales have taught me to trust the moment, to let go of fear and to embrace the new.  I am basking in the permission from my soul to stay in the quiet as I rebirth myself into the new without any expectations for the future.  I am continuing to meditate, go deep and listen to my soul.  Thank you, thank you, thank you dear whales.