Update: Pele’s Fire

Heart to Heart with Trish

Aloha Dear Friends,

Well, yes, it has been over six months since writing here in my blog.  What a six months this has been, right?  The world seems to be immersed in chaos on so many levels.  With the Covid virus, extreme political polarity, lock down and so much uncertainty, many are feeling just lost.  Many, however, are keeping their energy high and focusing on their choice for a world of peace, love and harmony.

For me, this time has been deep, challenging, wonderful, painful, exciting and all things in between.  I just could not write here in my blog immersed in the fire that living here with Pele in Volcano, Hawaii has offered to us!

We so love our little cottage here with its fireplace and now we have a fabulous hot tub too!  We are in the rain/fern forest with tall sacred Ohia trees surrounding us and sun dappled vegetation with wild orchids and amazing birds.  It is quiet, safe and private … perfect for where we are spiritually.  Because we could not travel to Portland for our annual summertime move, we have signed a lease here until June of next year.

Goddess Pele is the goddess of fire and transformation.  We live only five miles from Kilauea volcano and boy do we feel the fire!  The volcano is dormant right now, but the energy of fire is still very powerful.  Little did I know that moving here was my soul’s desire and I just know the universe had something to do with this move.  These six months have moved me through much deep inner work.

The whales in Mo’orea last year gave us the simple message …  “Dive Deeper.”  At that time in October of 2019 I couldn’t imagine I would have to go SO much deeper into my subconscious and my inner world than I thought possible!  The journey has been challenging but also very fruitful and I feel fantastic now!

We were so busy in January and February with our move, settling in and our Whales of Hawaii Retreat.  When March came, I finally was moving toward writing my third book.  That’s when my resistance emerged big time!  After helping out a friend who was sick for a week and the lock down began, I said to myself …. “OK now is the time to start writing.”

All along since finding this wonderful place I thought, how perfect for writing … quiet, no retreats and lots of time to write.  Aah, so I thought.  After sitting down and writing my prologue and beginning the first chapter … I was completely blocked!  The next day I just could not go forward.  All my resistances came up and long story short, I just did not want to do it!  I found myself feeling obligated to do it or unworthy, or felt it too much work … my heart and soul was just not into it.  And then the guilt came up … thinking I SHOULD do it!  Oh no!

What I have learned so deeply is that whatever I put out into the world just has to come from my heart and soul and not from any expectation I have put on myself.  From March on, I had to go through some months of dancing with my resistance, my emotional body and the left overs of all my years of therapy.  In these months, all of my insecurities and self doubts emerged once again to be looked at and healed.  Thank you Pele!

One day when I was in the hot tub, I felt Pele coming to me as she often does these days.  She lit a fire ethereally in my body while I was floating in the warm water.  What I saw in my mind’s eye was that I was upright in the Matrix, which looks to me like a muddy ocean of water.  As the fire raged on, I was brought up to the surface of that muddy ocean and once there, I began to be turned into smoke (as fire changes the form of that which is being burned).  Symbolically, I could see that she was helping me to change from third dimension into fourth dimension.  In that dimension, it was much lighter than third, but still not the powerful Light of the fifth octave.  Soon she brought me above that level and into the Light of All Possibility … the fifth dimension and beyond.

When I went into that Light, it was magnificent and bright white Light.  Hallelujah!  I could really feel the difference of the dimensions.  Then Pele said to me that I should not put anything out into the world with my creativity until I am pure and clear.  Wow … could I ever reach that level?  Hmmmm …. had to ponder that one.

What I realized was that I had more inner work to do.  So I stopped writing and began to practice just BEING once again.  I allowed all the confusion and chaos of the world to remain outside of myself and kept going deeply inward.  What I found was that peace and knowing can only come from that place … my centerpoint  My truth can only come from there.

Through challenges of living in the chaos, political polarity, financial unknowns, lock down, physical uncertainties (like possible melanoma that turned out negative and skin cancer surgeries)  and all we all are experiencing this year, it has not been easy to navigate as usual.  Even though I am basically fear free, during the last few months my normal energy was depleted and I had to really keep my focus on what I choose to create and not on what I see outside of me.

For about the last five weeks, Doug and I have been attending our weekly meditation group in San Francisco by Zoom, lead by David, who is an amazing man, intelligent, grounded and completely connected to Source.  Wow, it has been fabulous for us and has opened me up to my soul again in a beautiful and powerful way.

One enlightening experience I had with Pele was when I was in meditation.  Pele came to me and told me she was going to help me dissolve the hyper vigilance that I had held in my body since a child.  When you are raised in a dysfunctional family, one always is vigilantly looking for the “other shoe to drop” … when would things get weird again.

I saw this energy as a body suit covering my whole body.  When I focused on it, it felt very constricting and contracting.  Pele lit a very soft and gentle fire beneath me and as I got warmer, I zipped open this suit of hyper vigilance and then could see it just melting away.  What emerged in my vision was my Light Body!  Wow, since then, I feel so much better and happier!  Thank you again dear Pele!

I asked myself, what would I love to do, since writing was not it at this time.  What came to me was to offer a very inexpensive spiritual coaching.  Now this was fun!  I just love to talk with people and inspire if I can.  So I created Heart to Heart with Trish.  Here is the web page:  www.hearttoheart.trishregan.com

We are steadfastly going forward with our Whales of Mo’orea Retreats in late September into early October.  We keep hearing from the whales that they see us there with them.  So we have many amazing participants who are holding the vision with us to have it happen.  I cannot imagine a more expanding and transformational experience especially this year!

The main thing that I have learned over this time of letting go is that I can only find my own truth within my heart and soul.  I must ONLY act from that space.  Whatever the chatter outside of myself exists is not where I focus.  I meditate deeply every day and go into the Centerpoint of Being. I must listen to what feels right for me.  The only peace that I can add to the world is from that deep space as if I am in the eye of the hurricane where all is perfectly quiet.

Ultimately I have moved back into trusting that all is truly in perfect divine order.  When I can focus on the Light and keep my vision of the world I choose to co-create, all the polarity and fear generated in our world today just falls away.  I can move into surrendering to my soul and simply follow my guidance each and every day.  Right now my husband, Doug, and I feel our clear guidance is to continue doing the inner work, clearing dysfunction and old fears and judgments instead of taking action in the outer world.  This way, if there is something for us to do, it will come from clarity and heart.

Though this year has been difficult and challenging in many ways, I know in my deepest heart of hearts that no matter what happens, humanity is evolving and, though the changes are messy, at the core is Light, Love, Compassion, Joy and Abundance for all.  We are going through the birth canal into a new world.

I hope this post will inspire you to only follow your own truth, your own heart and soul.  No matter what is outside of us, the only peace is within.  The truth shall set you free.  I truly believe that if we consistently just live from our hearts, we can not only be safe from outside influences but give peace and joy to the hologram in which we live.  It is from here that we find true joy and create magic.  If we can find that deep inner peace, it is like a balm that soothes the world.  Yes, just one person holding steady in LOVE can help to change the world!

Keep on keeping on dear friends.  Let love guide you.  Onward and upward!