Trish at Volcano

Well, here we are at another year since I have written in my blog here.  2023 was a very difficult year for me and still, through it all, in my foundation, I am intrinsically happy, for which I am so very grateful.  These last years of going in and being in the quiet have brought me through so many levels of being to uncover remnants of past traumas that had to be seen, felt, loved and transmuted.

Even though I had gone through many years of therapy, energy work and healing work before we began to work with dolphins and whales … and have had the amazing opportunity of allowing the cetaceans to help me heal … I discovered, in the quiet, several aspects that still needed to be unearthed to be healed.  It feels like my soul unfolded for me these perfect years of quiet so that I could allow it all to come forth.

Reaching the milestone last month of being on this planet for 80 years, I cannot believe I am here at this age already!  Where have the years gone?  I do not feel my age at all and feel healthy and vibrant beyond even the last ten years of my life!  I am so happy that I feel so good inside and out!  I just know that my dedication to my inner work has contributed to this and am just so grateful for the knowledge about how to really heal on all levels.

Last year began with news of my dear son, Sean, and his cancer battle.  He was diagnosed with a rare form of pancreatic cancer that is very slow-moving that he may have had for many, many years before being discovered.  Thank God it was not the more aggressive kind!  As a mother, of course, this was deeply disturbing and brought me to my knees, as you can imagine.

I was gratefully able to be with him while during surgery and afterward for two more weeks.  Thankfully, the surgery was successful and they removed a lot of the cancer (he is very healthy now and monitoring it all).  While there, in the first week, when he was still in the hospital, I just could not sleep!  By the time he was to come home the following day after a week in the hospital, I was so weak from no sleep, my body was able to remember a traumatic event from my childhood, once again, and I had the opportunity to feel it and release it.  I just know that the universe conspired to have this happen so that I could keep clearing my body of hidden emotions held deep within.  I know how to do it and afterward, I felt I had cleared and cleaned more of my body which always helps me to feel younger every time I do so!

I am a firm believer that those traumas we store in our cells lead to disease and aging and more often than not, we are not aware of them until a life experience brings them forth. Though I have done so much inner work to be clear within my physical body and emotional body, I am not sure we are ever done really …  so I feel that I am “riding the wave” of life rooted in my spirituality that helps me to see the big picture and embrace it all, even the pain.

Johanna Regan

The other huge challenge last year was the passing of my dear sister, Johanna (a twin),  She was ten years younger than me so I truly was like her “other mother” and did much to raise her … since the twins were the last of seven children in our family.  For the last six months of the year I oversaw all the caregivers and other details that were necessary to help her to stay home and not be sent to a facility. Continue reading →

In the rainforest

July 6, 2021 REBORN!!

I Am
It Is
Amen

If you have been following my journey of inner healing and surrender for the last two years since we lost our house, you will know of the stunning initiation that occurred to me when we were with the humpback whales in Mo’orea last October.

Since my last writing, my dear body has been showing me where very old energy was hidden within … remnants of past traumas from my childhood and past lives that have been stuck in the density of my cells for seventy seven years. Yes, I have gone through many years of therapy and energy healings before being called to Hawaii to work with the dolphins way back in 1994. And this sacred time has allowed my soul to bring forth the deep core entrenched energies to be loved and transmuted into Light.

Though I had so much fear of financial security,and other fears too, hidden within, I actually allowed myself to “jump off the cliff” following our guidance to move to Hawaii in 1994. Over the many years, the dolphins and whales helped me to release that fear so deeply. I do feel I am now free of it for the most part, thanks to the cetaceans and to my amazing husband, Doug, who supports me on all levels.

Back in October, while we were facilitating our whale-swim retreat in beautiful Mo’orea, the last Thursday swim (October 8) brought forth the extraordinary initiation that I have written about in my blog (scroll down). At that time, the whales told me (and it was confirmed by my spiritual teacher, David) that I was going to give birth to a new me … I was the Mother and the Child. I was symbolically carrying the new me. I knew the gestation would take nine months.

During the last nine months, I have had delicious time to just be … no work during this time. I gave myself the gift of only focusing on myself for this gestation period. For days on end, I would sit in our yard here in the beautiful rain forest and just allow myself to sit and be with nature. There was nothing I HAD to do! Pele held my feet to the fire supporting my clearings. Surrounded by the sacred Ohia trees and giant ferns in the peaceful surroundings here has allowed my process of deeper healing to unfold and my body to finally let go of ancient negative energy from this life and other lifetimes too.

I have so loved this quiet time, even though I had pains in my body and emotional clearings off and on all along the way. My body showed me through the pain that, despite years and years of healing, I had not completely unearthed and been conscious of remnants of past trauma from my childhood that were still stuck.

We had to go through all of our things that have been in paid storage since July of 2019 and clear out even more. This allowed me to find treasures of awakening that I had written about in my journals, and memories began to flourish.

As the months rolled on, different memories from the dysfunction came into my awareness to be felt, cried out and loved, which led to many times of forgiveness and clearing. I was aware enough to allow the feelings and not to do spiritual bypassing. My amazing husband, Doug, would stop what he was doing and just hold me as I cried and shook until the psychic pain passed once again.

July 1, as I was nearing the ninth month date of my spiritual gestation time, I was guided to do a seven day silent retreat. This was perfect for me as I could really look over the last nine months and understand it all. I did a few meditations each day, read excerpts from books that were guided by my Higher Self, wrote in my journal and allowed myself to just be with the silence.

On July 6, I had the very strong feeling that this was to be my new birth-day. As I made my way to my favorite spot in our backyard up on the little hill to find the perfect spot to sit, I heard, “This is like your third dimensional birth (I was born on Easter) … like Easter and being re-born into the Light.”

Earlier that day I had finished my journaling and delving into various etheric ceremonies guided by my Higher Self (HS). I did feel complete and ready for birth. The following is what happened for my new birth. Continue reading →